Saturday, February 9, 2008
Last Thursday night aku ajak aryy and nabil to chill out at changi beach. As usual around 10pm onwards. Tak sangka munah nak ikut. Maklum lah selalu dia mana boleh keluar malam. She came with izam.And what surprise me most is the scenario that we saw that night. Selalu nya when we chill out, it is so quiet, so serene, so tranquil and so peaceful. And when the night wind blow....OMG. The feeling is so wonderful.Tapi malam tu, kus semangat, orang punya ramai....mak kau. Terlalu ramai yang berkemah, dan yang ada pasang tent besar seh. Suka aku tengok mereka2 tu bersantai bersama keluarga. Tapi aku tak minat lagi macam tu. Setakat chill out boleh lah. I feel it is so uncomfortable.Aku baru habis masak nasi lemak untuk ku bawa ke chalet. This time yang pergi hanya keluarga man, aku dan munah. Yat macam biasa lah, tak leh pergi sebab Rosli say no. I heard his sibling is coming over to their crib. Memang lain benar aku tengok adik aku yang satu ni. Taat betul dgn suami. Everything that she want to do must get green light from her husband first. Like she got no say. Itu pun aku tahu from muna. If she didn't tell me, I won't know. Tak apa lah, semoga mereka berbahagia sekeluarga, itu yang penting.And adik aku lagi satu tu si bantot pun tak akan join in sebab she is having more fun going to phuket dgn anak aku yang tua dan dgn adik aku yang bukan adik lagi. Adik bodek. Apa lah chalet kalau nak dibandingkan dengan phuket. Of course Phuket is more interesting.Well, dulu I used to think that kalau aku nak kemana-mana, I must make sure that all my siblings join in. I think that it is more fun that way. Tapi sekarang aku dah tak cam dulu lagi. Aku dah makin memahami bahawa, walaupun kita adik beradik, minat kita, kemampuan kita, kesukaan kita dah tak sama lagi. Sebab masing2 dah mempunyai keluarga dan cara hidup tersendiri. So, I find that it's better to spend time with my own family than caring about others feelings and trying to please everyone. It's not worth it beb. U will only be seek when u are needed, beside that, u are what u are. So, it's not worth it to care about others anymore. Get it. Your own feeling comes first. Life really makes me more matured. OK CHIAO. I'M GONNA GET READY FOR THE CHALET.
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