I have not been feeling that well lately. But nevermind, life has to go on. Met my long lost friend, Liew at Melaleuka. Oh god how i miss him. We used to be so close when we were at the defunct company, "SINGAPORE MONITOR". We were just like family, fun and laughter, and all those cool guys working together. Sigh....How I wish we never grow old. Stay together forever. Yayayaya sweet dream. He change in appearance but not character. Same old Liew that I know. And we were talking and laughing like old time. He with his dirty jokes.

Dia luahkan segala isi hati. Masaalah dia dgn wife, anak2. He said that his children is not talking to him. I ask him why. He said maybe he's menopause. He also never talk to them. His daughter is following his son to stay at the NTU hostel. Dia sedih sangat sampai dia keep everything to himself and tak nak luahkan to his children and wife.

I told him, jgn pendamkam apa yang dia rasa. You have to talk and reveal what is bothering u and open up to them. By talking, we understand each other better. We tend to know what is the problem and why are we like this. Make sure that the bond of us and our family were tight. He listens and said that he would try. I pity him. Sincerely.

Every humans have their set of problem. Everyone....haish.....

I'm visiting my dentist again this evening. Hope to hear good news.

By the way, in the end Arry and Pek will go on their own to Bintan, and I, Munah and Leha will go the week after. Only the three of us without any children tagging along. Yeehaaaaa...Three old maid going to Bintan. To relax after soooooooooooooooooo many years. Hope that everything went well. Going to book it tomorrow.

AND AND AND DAMN IT, MY N73 HANG..SHIT....

after dentist have to visit nokia care...DARN

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This the bag that I was saying...amacam, jambu tak!!!!!

Kadang2 aku rasa marah sangat, aku nak jerit tapi dgn siapa. Walaupun dia yang buat salah. Aku stresss, stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. HAH KAU. Aku yang kerja dgn dia ke dia yang kerja ngan aku. Aku nak lari jauh, jauh, jauh ooooooooooo....

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I'm getting better now. Arry's friend, I don't know who u are but thanks for ur concern. I'm seeing the dentist this Monday. Pray for me that it is nothing serious.

Everyday, balek kerja and sebelum pergi kerja, Arry will always talk to me. Talk to me about almost everything. Except his secrets. Of course....hahaha

Jaja used to do that too when she is with Sufi. Semua manusia ada baik ada buruk nya. Even though Sufi have some bad points and he does have his good points too. At least bila jaja ngan Sufi, she appreciate me more. She understand me better. And she is a better person. I miss that. She knows when to go out and when not. She learnt to be thrifty. Pengaruh kawan ni kadang2 terlalu kuat untuk kita tepis. Friends, acquaintance, lovers, do play a very important part in our life. The influence of the opposite sex can be good and bad too. Well, maybe she will realise it one day. Maybe we can be better friends too. Who knows......

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Just came back from dentist.

The pain is getting worse. From head to left eye, and down to left nose and now teeth. So I suspected it was my teeth. The pain is unbearable. I decided to call my dentist and fix an appt. The nurse said that its full, but if I need to see him urgently, just come down and have to wait. There's no compromise. Need to go.

I rush there immediately, and lucky enough cuma ada satu patient kat dalam. Then the patient after belum datang, so the nurse call me to go in. So lucky.

Masuk aja doctor Halid smiling, asking me kenapa lama tak datang. I said, mcm biasa lah, tak sakit tak datang. We laugh. He check my teeth and find no holes. But my gum is so swollen. To be safe he said need to x-ray. He did that, first time I saw an x-ray film for teeth. My god it is so tiny. Confirm there's no whole. But when he knock at this one tooth, omg it is so painful. After he done a thorough check-up, he ask abt my nose. Did I have severe running nose, bec he suspected it is my sinus that's acting up. He said the swollen is really bad. I know that the pain start from my left eye and nose. I can't even touch it. It is so painful.

He gave me few types of medicine, not to forget pain killers. I have to see again next monday. Dear God, I pray that it is only a minor problem. And I pray that after taking this medicine, I won't be having the pain anymore and the swollen will subside. I luv my children. Give me more time to spend with them. I hope u will hear my prayer.

Amin....

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Went to Sentosa yesterday. All of us except for those who's working can't make it. Arry and Sue both was suppose to work. Tengok kita dah siap and kena psycho ngan jaja and ifa, terus tak gi kerja. He call his manager and said he got berak2. (susah ah nak eja diaerhaaaaaa) And his manager ask for mc. Mampos. how he is going to answer to them today. I'll wait for him to come back and see what he said....haha......

Tadi pergi kedai nyonya bawa munah nak beli tv. Kelmarin bawa leha beli fridge. Aku rasa, ambil commission dari nyonya pun cantek ah kan...wakakakaka...

Celaka punya nyonya, satu sen pun dia tak kasi aku.

Anyway I feel something funny and not right about my left eye. I had a piercing pain sampai kepala. I can't even touch. It hurts. Hati tak sedap. But I'm scared to see a doctor. Takut terima berita tak baik. Maklum lah kita ni banyak penyakit. Mudah-mudahan jangan berlanjutan. Anak2 aku masih ada yang primary school. Kalau semua dah besar mcm baya arry, aku tak kesah. Kalau sesuatu yang buruk terjadi, aku tak akan rasa kesal. Sebab mereka mesti dah pandai bawa diri. Aku tak boleh harapkan laki aku. Dia memang tak reti nak jaga anak2. Dari dulu lagi. Semoga tuhan sampaikan hajat dihati.

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Hari terus menerus hujan tak berhenti.

I luv RAIN soooooo much, but situation is such that it force me to hate rain.

Setiap kali hari hujan, hati aku terasa sayup. Because rain brings too many memories. Sweet and Sad.

Kalau dulu bila hujan lebat, aku suka sekali. Aku akan kesukaan dan kegembiraan macam budak kecil. And kalau zaman kanak2, aku akan menari-nari dalam hujan tanpa masaalah, cuma kalau arwah nenek tahu, aku kena libas dgn rotan. Hahahaha.

Tapi kalau sekarang hujan lebat, hati aku resah gelisah mengenangkan all these riders outside. It is so dangerous on the road and these riders are risking their life to get the job done. God!!!! I'm so stresssssssssss.

Boleh tak Ya Allah, kau kasi hujan pada malam hari ja. Tidur pun sedap. So Cosy.....

PLEASE..............................

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The girls are rather different. They like to play masak2, play with the dolls, main pengantin2, one leg and so on. Permainan yang doesn't interest me at all.

U can say that I have identity problem. It's not that I hate girls, but aku lemas dgn dia orang nya remeh-temeh, gossipping and gembeng. And yang mengada-ngada. To join them u have to be like them. And aku bukan orang kaya yang apa dia orang suruh bawa aku mesti adakan. I don't face all this prob with the boys. We just enjoy each other company and tak banyak rewel.

Sometimes I ask myself what am I and where am I. I feel so confused at times. Bukan nya jiwa aku ni jiwa lelaki, I do feel tergugat bila yang handsome2 tu look at me ke kan. But at that tender age, I do feel so confused. But not anymore now. I'm married with four kids. Hehe...

I met someone yesterday, accidentally, and without us acknowledge each other. I was up on the escalator. Suddenly I turn around and saw that someone bergegas-gegas, trying to avoid me from seeing him. I smile to myself. How funny life is, I thought.

Hamba Allah ini have a soft spot in my heart. Kesian dia. He has this identity problem too. In a different way. The way I see it, he tried so hard to look for his missing identity. What he want to be. Where he belong. He tried very very hard to please everybody, in a way that the people around him musn't know what he's doing. He wants to be recognised. But he's not sure in what way. He want's to excel in his studies and be somebody. That's what he told me. But at the same time he cannot let go of his samseng taik kucing buddies. He said he is studying very hard, and got no time for other things. But rumours went round that he's an avid fan of lan gaming and roaming abt at night with those kids on the block. (samseng taik kucing) My heart goes to him. Kesian. I can understand how he feels.

Doa aku untuk dia, semoga berjaya dalam segala lapangan yang dia ceburi. Dan teruskan pencarian mu. Mudah-mudahan satu hari nanti, he will find his true identity.

Sincerely from me....

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