The girls are rather different. They like to play masak2, play with the dolls, main pengantin2, one leg and so on. Permainan yang doesn't interest me at all.
U can say that I have identity problem. It's not that I hate girls, but aku lemas dgn dia orang nya remeh-temeh, gossipping and gembeng. And yang mengada-ngada. To join them u have to be like them. And aku bukan orang kaya yang apa dia orang suruh bawa aku mesti adakan. I don't face all this prob with the boys. We just enjoy each other company and tak banyak rewel.
Sometimes I ask myself what am I and where am I. I feel so confused at times. Bukan nya jiwa aku ni jiwa lelaki, I do feel tergugat bila yang handsome2 tu look at me ke kan. But at that tender age, I do feel so confused. But not anymore now. I'm married with four kids. Hehe...
I met someone yesterday, accidentally, and without us acknowledge each other. I was up on the escalator. Suddenly I turn around and saw that someone bergegas-gegas, trying to avoid me from seeing him. I smile to myself. How funny life is, I thought.
Hamba Allah ini have a soft spot in my heart. Kesian dia. He has this identity problem too. In a different way. The way I see it, he tried so hard to look for his missing identity. What he want to be. Where he belong. He tried very very hard to please everybody, in a way that the people around him musn't know what he's doing. He wants to be recognised. But he's not sure in what way. He want's to excel in his studies and be somebody. That's what he told me. But at the same time he cannot let go of his samseng taik kucing buddies. He said he is studying very hard, and got no time for other things. But rumours went round that he's an avid fan of lan gaming and roaming abt at night with those kids on the block. (samseng taik kucing) My heart goes to him. Kesian. I can understand how he feels.
Doa aku untuk dia, semoga berjaya dalam segala lapangan yang dia ceburi. Dan teruskan pencarian mu. Mudah-mudahan satu hari nanti, he will find his true identity.
Sincerely from me....
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