Orang alim2 selalu mengatakan, lebih sayang nya Allah pada kita, lebih banyak cobaan yang akan di berikan pada kita. Macam2 dugaan yang akan kita hadapi.
Haish...entahlah....... Terlarat ke tidak kita si penerima ni melalui nya. Masaalah demi masaalah yang aku tempuhi. Laut pun ada pasang surut nya. Tapi masaalah aku yg mendatang, tak ada henti nya. Kalau tak anak, laki yang buat hal. Bukan lah aku ni ada masaalah dgn laki aku. Cuma kelurusan dia sebagai seorang manusia telah byk mendatangkan masaalah yang sangat berat yang harus aku pikul. Kalau ada sesiapa ada kesusahan, nak pinjam along pun dia sanggup jadi guarantor. Orang lari, aku pikul beban yang tak ada kesudahan nya. Kalau boleh, buah dia pun dia akan gadai kalau orang perlu lah aku rasa.
Macam mana nak aku buatkan lagi. Dapat laki terlalu lurus. Bukan aku menyesal, tapi aku tak faham kenapa sejak beberapa tahun kebelakangan ini, hidup aku tak tenang. Apa tak nya, asyik di belenggu dgn masaalah yang datang silih berganti, tak tau sampai bila.
Ingin aku bertanya pada mu tuhan, kalau kau sayangkan aku hamba mu ini, cukuplah cobaan yang berikan buat masa ini. Hentikan lah. Berikan aku sedikit ruang untuk bernafas. Bukan kekayaan yang aku minta, tapi belas kasihan dari mu pada ku seorang insan kudus. Berikan aku ketenangan supaya dapat aku nikmati keindahan alam sekeliling yang engkau jadikan.
Alangkah baik nya ya Allah, jika kau tidak menjadikan neraka dan dunia. Tak lah manusia di turunkan ke bumi. Hidup lah para nabi, bidadari and makhluk yang sememangnya kau jadikan sejak awal lagi tanpa noda dan dosa di syurga mu.
Memang aku dah keterlaluan. Aku cuma mengharapkan belas kasihan dari mu. Cukup lah cobaan yang datang bertubi2 tanpa henti. Hanya ini pinta ku. Badan aku dah tak larat nak menanggung ini semua, kerana ia nya dah terlalu lama.
Sampaikan lah doa ku ini wahai malaikat. Bisikkanlah kata hati ku ini pada yang maha esa. Semoga ia mendengar. Amin....
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THIS IS THE TOP OF THE CABINET. IT'S LIKE SUN THAT BRING BRIGHTNESS TO VANEX.
THIS IS THE FRONT DRAWER. GREEN AND PEACEFUL.
THIS IS THE LEFT SIDE WITH THE WORD VANEX. THE DESIGN OF BLACK AND RED DONE BY ARRY.
THIS IS THE RIGHT SIDE DONE BY ME. MAY VANEX GROWS WITH THE TREE OF GOLD LEAVES. WAKAKAKA.....
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Arry before he start his running.
And this is Ifa, the shy and tak da hidung girlLabels: hati kudus
Sports has always been my interest. I luv to see guys or girls very active in sports. I feel no matter what, sports make u feel healthy, macho, fit, and have nice BODY. Admit it. Before I have children, I use to dream that all my children will be active in sports. But, GOD is not on my side. I have been pestering my children to take up sports during their secondary years. So sad, nobody listens. I have dreams that one day Ifa gonna be a swimmer. She has very strong arms. When arry said he want to join soccer during his secondary school, I feel elated. But all my hopes crashed. Ifa decided to join band. I don't want to force my children do things that they dont enjoy and no interest. I give in to them.
Finally, Arry now is in Poly. He seems to have the interest in sports now. I'm so happy. I give him all my support all the way. Whatever he needed for the sports that he is into, canoeing, I try my very best to provide him the basic needs. I give him cash to get himself a swimming trunk. Yesterday, my bro give me additional $50 bucks to top up the cash I have to buy him his running shoes. And not to forget his goggles. But before we go eastpoint, he did tell me, tomorrow they gonna make a final selection. And there are not many people join canoeing. He is reluctant to buy the shoes. I said proceed, cause he need it for running tomorrow. I know he don't want me to feel bad if things don't turn right. I told him not to worry too much.
And today, true enough, the selection was made. Non of the malays were selected. No matter how hard he try to impress them, nothing works his way. I know how he feels. Frustrated, dissapointed, irritated, down and many more. After making the student buy all the necessary stuff and they were told to beat it. How unfair life is. But anyway, maybe there's a blessing.
Just when my dreams were about to come true......wakakaka
Hati ibu akan tetap merasa apa yang anak rasa.
Hope that better things will come his way. I will always pray for my children......I will.
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Last Wednesday Arry friends came over. When he told me they were having bbq and he was the organiser, I kept quiet. He went to buy all the stuff with his friends and keep it at his friend's place. Well at first I thought he knows to do everything untill on Wednesday he was asking me how to marinate the chicken.
Cut the story short, in the end his friend brought all the things back to my house. I help them to marinate the chicken and stringray. After all the job was done, arry, nabil and not to forget Hakim (the long lost boy that went missing for half a year) and with arry friends, they were playing pair kol. It was so noisy and the noise came from Nabil (the obvious one). wakakaka
He came back today and said it was a successfull one. The stingray was the most popular. Haish....for our children, penat pun tak kisah as long as they are happy.
Good for him.
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