ASNI TAN

Sunday, February 15, 2009

It was on the 12th of February 2009. Early in the morning, I wake up as usual I will start my work from the kitchen. While busy cooking, suddenly Jaja said, "Happy Birthday Mama". I turn and she give me a card and a piece of cake. I was shock, as I told them, don't spent anything on my birthday. Money is too precious now and it's not important to spend unnecessarily for my birthday. But I really do appreciate their thoughts. And I'm so touch that I cry. Arsyi gave his card and flower to Jaja to pass to me. He is so sweet. Always surprise me with flower. Then Arsyi sms me to open up my facebook and go to pet society. He and Jaja gave me lots of present there. He is so cute.

Many wishes came in via sms from 12midnight till the next morning. All my nieces and nephews sms me as early as 6am in the morning. My god. Only Sue and Izam didn't wish me this year. Maybe they forget their canggih aunt is turning older and wiser. wakakaka.........

In the evening, Ifa came home with Arsyi from school, rather late. Near 7pm, and Ifa gave me a novel, and Arsyi another card. So two birthday card in a row. Arry came home later around 9pm, with Ray, JZ and Jason. They surprise me with durian puff, durian cake, and orkid plant. Not only that, they sing and dance happy birthday to me. Arry said sorry to me bec he is late in giving me his present. Hakim came with two toblerone. White chocolate. I told him I never like white chocolate, but thanks anyway for his thoughts. Tomorrow he came again with another toblerone, but this time it's the norm chocolate. My three sisters, gave me money. Which I have told them in advance, don't give me anything. Times are bad and I'm really worried that I might not have the means to repay them. Munah is the first who insist to give me some cash. Saying that she don't want anything in return. Next Leha and Timah, given to me when we celebrate Azie's birthday yesterday.

After we came back from Timah hse yesterday, suddenly while we were sitting down at the sofa, Jaja bring out a cake. I was surprised. Why another cake. She told me it was suppose to be given when Nabil come out from the camp. They were waiting to celebrate with Nabil. But Nabil was being penalised for being late and he can't book out. So they sing me a birthday song and cutting the cake without Nabil. Hakim and Jason was there too when I cut the cake.

To be honest, this is the first time I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time. I was so touch and appreciate very very much the efforts and thoughts that was being done for me. I never know how much they have grown up and matured in front of my eyes.

WITH THIS, I WOULD LIKE TO THANKS ALL OF MY CHILDREN AND RAY, HAKIM, JASON AND JZ WHO HAVE PUT UP THE EFFORT TO PUT A SMILE ON MY SAD FACE. ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU EVERYONE.

This is the cake that was just cut yesterday.

A Novel from Ifa

Orkid from Arry.

Flowers from Arsyi

Cake from Jaja

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Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Dalam diam, besok umur aku sudah pun menjangkau 47tahun. Macam tak percaya gitu. Sambil menulis, sambil mendengar lagu2 Alleycat yang membawa seribu kenangan. Dari umur ku belasan tahun, sampailah skrg. Dari kami adik-beradik masih single sampai lah beranak penak. Masing2 telah dewasa. Masing2 punya tanggong jawap sendiri.

Kenangan demi kenangan bermain di benak kepala ku ini. Bagaimana aku menolong mak menjaga adik2 aku sampai lah mereka sudah pandai meneraju keluarga sendiri. Masih segar dalam ingatan aku ketika mereka kecil dahulu. Banyak peristiwa suka dan duka kita harungi bersama. Betapa takut nya adik2 aku bila aku marah. Tapi hati kecil aku ini tetap tebal dgn perasaan sayang dan tak rela aku kalau mereka di sakiti. Bila aku sudah mula bekerja, mereka masih bersekolah. Akan aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk adakan apa pun adik2 tak dapat sebelum nya. Aku tak dapat terima bila mak pukul adik2 aku. Akan aku tahan dan adakala nya aku terpaksa berkasar dgn mak supaya dia hentikan perbuatan nya. Dan dari pertunagan sehinggalah mereka berkahwin. Aku lah orang yang pertama mak cari untuk uruskan ni semua. Kerana mak orang nya tak rengkas. Senyum dan tawa mereka adalah senyum dan tawa aku.

Tapi itu semua dulu. Sekerang mereka dah jadi mak orang. Dah jadi ibu dan ada yang dah berjaya hingga mejadi seorang yang terpelajar. Aku pun sudah tak diperlukan lagi. Ini lah dia roda2 hidup yang harus kita lalui apabila tahun berganti tahun. Bulan berganti bulan. Masing2 dengan kehidupan masing2. Zaman remaja kita telah lama berakhir. Hanya satu doa ku pada semua, semuga berbahgia dan lebih berjaya, dan harungi lah hidup kamu semua dgn bijak. Belum tentu kita akan bersama lagi selama2 nya. Terima Kasih aku ucapkan atas budi baik dan pengorbanan adik2 aku semua. Akan aku sematkan dalam dalam ke lubuk hati kecil ku.

Semuga tuhan memberkati......AMIN

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4:07 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

MY DAUGHTER NUR HAJAR

She went for a bridal make-up by her friend. He needs a model so went along. Gembira betul. Pulang dari sana she ask me, mama do I look like pengantin. To make her happy I said yes. But I don't feel the make-up is so outstanding. Nothing to be compared with few that I've seen. And she make sure I receive all the picture that she took. To be honest, she's born with beautiful features that even without make-up she does look beautiful. Why bother with all this make-up and make over. It was only for those who are below average. But she would never listen, because she is a paranoid when come to beauty. What to do. Haish......

She ask me what did I want for my birthday. I said nothing. She was not happy. I told her, what if mama menyusahkan kau. If got not enough money, I don't feel good. She insist. She wanna bring me out for dinner. Told her my favourite is still Muthucurry. She said she can only fork out $150. Balance will be on me. wakakakak....

I appreciate whatever that she has plan to make me happy on my birthday. But I just have too many problems that I feel its not right to celebrate. I told her to give me the money so that I can make use of during this crisis since my husband pay was cut by half. We need to survive, and it's important that we get the necessary settle first before we can think of enjoyment. Luckily this time she agree with me. And pass me the $100 first. It may not be much, but it helps. Thanks to u Jaja and all my children for your thoughts. I promise, one day, if our financial is back to normal, I will bring all of u out for Muthu Curry. THANKS, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT.

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Monday, February 9, 2009

ARRY SAID HIS FRIENDS IS COMING YESTERDAY TO REHEARSE HIS JAPANESE SCRIPT. AND HE ASK ME TO BRING HIS SIBLINGS OUT OF THE HSE OR ITS GONNA BE NOISY. SO IT HAPPENS WHEN I CALL MUNAH DIA AJAK LEPAK KAT BEACH IN PASIR RIS. SO I AGREED. FINALLY IFA GOT LOADS OF HMWORK TO BE DONE AND DECIDED NOT TO FOLLOW. JAJA WENT SWIMMING WITH SUE. AND ONLY ME, HAKIM, ARSYI, IZAM, IKA AND MUNAH PROCEED TO THE BEACH.

THE WEATHER IS SO BEAUTIFUL. BREEZY AND BILA HARI MENJELANG SENJA, BULAN PURNAMA PUN MENUJUKKAN WAJAH NYA. SUNGGUH2 CANTIK. KEBETULAN BULAN PENUH SEMALAM. ARSYI BRING ALONG HIS KITE THAT HE BOUGHT FROM MALACCA. TU PUN IDEA AKU JUGA. AND WHEN WE WERE THERE, BYK ORANG MAIN LAYANG2. ARYSI KITES NAIK TINGGI. SINCE ARSYI BRING TWO, IKA PLAY THE STRIPES AND ARSYI PLAY THE ORANGE. HELP BY HAKIM AND IZAM. SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SCENE AND WEATHER YESTERDAY. SAYANG NYA AKU TAK AMBIL GAMBAR BULAN PENUH.

Ika trying her best to control the kite.

Arsyi is abt to fly his kite

Hakim belo makan mee yang munah bawa. Behind him is Izam and Arsyi playing the kite.

Munah is watching them.

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3:39 PM

Monday, February 2, 2009

Pergi ke Melaka lagi aku sabtu lepas. Munah terpaksa ke sana kerana urusan rumah dia di Melaka. Her husband can't take leave, so Munah merayu aku supaya temankan dia. Pergi sorang takut pula dia tu. Kesian punya pasal, pergi juga lah aku ni. Berdua lah kita, mcm muda2 dulu. Beg tangan yang berderet-deret semua tak ikut. Ada juga yang tanya kenapa tak boleh ikut. Hai, setakat satu hari satu malam pun nak ikut. Ish ish ish........

Selepas uruskan soal rumah, kita berdua pergi lah pasar malam. Pak Itam yang drive us there. Bukan apa yang kita beli, belacan, ikan bilis dan keropok lekor. Hahahah, jauh2 pergi itu ja lah yang kita beli. Cuba juga cari beg camera for Arry, but they dont have it like what he want. Tak putus asa, before we went home, we went out so much earlier so that we can find it in Mahkota Parade. But still they don't have like what Arry want. Penat mencari tak dapat juga, kita gi lah makan kan Pizza Hut. Three of us cost around $55 ringgit. Convert to Sing Dollars punya lah murah.

Tak sangka rupanya rumah Mak Itam buat kenduri arwah Pak Ngah yang dah meninggal setahun. Dan besok nya hari kita nak pulang, Nek Andak pulak buat kenduri. Sayang nya kita tak boleh hadir sebab kita nak keluar siang sikit sebab nak ke Mahkota Parade. Lagipun si Munah tu dah tak sabar, resah gelisah nak balek. Rindu anak ke rindu laki, atas punya orang aja tau.

Ini adalah Mak Ngah Rai dan Mak Itam Gayah. Mak Ngah umurnya 62 tahun. Tapi she doesn't look like one.

Ini Pak Itam aku. Suami nya Mak Itam. Bukan Guru Yahya tau...........

Ni Pak Long Rosli. Dia ni pemalu orang nya. Suruh pandang camera pun tak nak. He is one of my favourite. When we were so much younger, when I go Malacca we will go always out together.

Hari nak pulang tu, Ning kucing Pak Itam yang manja tu datang kat kita, apa lagi, aku ambil gambar dia byk2 and Munah pun tak nak ketinggalan posing ngan Ning.

Pak Itam kalau dokong Ning, macam dokong baby. She's damn cute.

This is me with Ning.

Ning dgn gaya yang manja.

Ni adalah gambar Nek Andak yang selalu ada mesyuarat tingkap dengan Mak Itam. Sebab rumah mereka terlalu dekat with each other. Kalau nak bercakap, kat tingkat ja lah yang paling senang.

Munah sedang enjoy her spaghetti kat Pizza Hut.

Pak Itam tak nak makan, nak Ice Cream aja. Dia kata tak reti makan makanana ni semua. I order Pitza and finally he ate some. Till next time we meet again Pak Itam. They are all very nice people.

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