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Thursday, April 30, 2009

I am addicted. Yes ADDICTED....

But not to drugs, but to Japanese and Korean show. I drowned my sorrow, my agony, my frustration, and my everything to this show. How lovely their story is. Words can't describe. Their luv is not like all the Ang Moh show where all they have is lust....Irritating.....

I just can't pass my day without visiting mysoju.

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2:52 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

It's been awhile since I blog. I 'm going to lepaskan sebak kat dada aku skrg ni.

Dear Journal,

I always believe baik perbuatan kita baik lah balasan nya, tapi kebelakangan ini aku seperti dah tak nak percaya kata2 pepatah orang tua2 ni lagi.

Let me begin, the reason why I pen it down here is to make sure that if the sms is lost, I still have something to refer.

Pada tahun lepas, aku sewakan, to be exact bukan sewakan tapi hand over my van to my nephew. Dah lah aku tak ambil duit kopi or senang cakap duit hand over, niat hati tak da lain, ingin menolong anak sedara sendiri maju dan berjaya. Sebab dia baru nak menapak to do his own delivery.

Untuk orang yang baru buka company, kalau kita nak beli company vehicle, first kita harus ada some downpayment. Dan kita harus ada guarantor yang bergaji lebih dari 5ribu keatas. Sebab kita baru bermula. No car dealers would trust us beginners. Unless u buy cash.

Jadi, dia senang, tak payah nak go through all this. And I admit at the same time dia pun legakan aku juga dari van tu tak bergerak. Aku akui mmg aku berterima kasih. Senang cakap kita help each other.

Time and again he would ask me for advice and aku pun kasi dia job to add the to delivery that he's having. Everything goes well. Untill...........

Baru bawa van tak sampai sebulan dia accident. Masa tu Hari Raya Haji. Dia kena claim sampai lebih 10ribu. Itu pun aku try me very best to help him settle with the insurance. Six month later dia accident lagi. Ini kali 100% salah dia. Dia kena claim insurance sampai 4ribu lebih.

So senang cakap dia dah tak da NCD value lagi. Maybe aku tersalah cakap atau dia salah faham aku tak pasti. Van ni mmg ada lagi dua tahun installment when he took over. So when I told him lagi satu tahun I mean another one more year to go after the year that he took over. Mungkin kita dua2 salah faham. Itu tak pa, tapi aku tak tahu rupanya dia terlalu marah sebab perkara satu atau dua tahun ni.

So tahun ni bulan March is the renewal of the insurance and road tax dah sampai, aku receive from NTUC the insurance renewal letter of $3000 over. I kol him. Dai jadi marah, dia tanya kenapa mahal sangat. Aku cakap itu aku tak tahu, why don't u ask around for others, sementara tu aku akan tanya kawan aku Liza, seorang car dealer whether she can help out. Liza did find out for me and I manage to get $2100, tapi kena bayar cash. Tak boleh installment. Or can use credit card. I kol him and tell him the news. He tak happy. Dia cakap dia akan kol aku balek.

Tunggu punya tunggu, on the 10th of March he sms me saying he is returning me my van. And Insurance mati on the 16th. Tolak weekend bermakna he give me 4 working days to settle the roadtax by myself. Taik yang dia buat aku kena kesat. Aku masih menahan sabar. Aku terus talipon Liza and ask for advice. Liza cakap the only way is to scrap the van. Jadi aku fax OCBC asking for final settlement. Aku kol mak dia. She claims she knows nothing. Tak da lagi jalan keluar sebab masa dah terlalu suntuk. He came over that night and return the van. So I tell him he have to pay half of the insurance since the accident is cause by him not me. Or I try to scrap the van so kita tak yah keluar byk duit. I did explain to him. He said he want to see the original receipt. I do whatever he said. Aku mcm orang gila, meminjam sana meminjam sini untuk dapatkan duit final settlement. After things was settle by Liza, semua nya aku kena $1900 lebih for disposal. Dan bukan tu aja, sebab masa dah suntuk sangat Liza terpaksa layup the van first sementara tunggu LTA punya jawapan. It is alot of work I can say. Thanks to Liza.

Setelah semua selesai, aku photocopy all the receipt and ask my rider Hazmi to send the letter to his house. Dua minggu aku tunggu jawapan dari dia. Dia tak bother to call me even. So aku ingat kalau dapat duit tu, aku nak belikan Mohd obat lagi. So aku sms dia, this is what our sms conversation is:-

Aku: Mcm mana Lan. When can I have the payment.

Him: Since u decided to scrap. y u asking me 4 the money.

Aku: Bec 2 solve both of our prob. Have u forgotten that u give me 4 days 2 settle this ins prob. When u take this van there is an agreement letter bet u n me. Jgn ingat that u r so smart now that u can be so rude 2 me.

Him: Am i being rude. first of all u say left 1 year. when 1year almost up. wat u tell me! U overlooked it. gives a big? mark.

Aku: Wat diff does it make, 1yr or 2yrs. Ins premium is so high bec of ur stupid acc. Go n do ur homework. Do watever u thing is right. Wat comes round goes round.

Him: Its doesn't to u but a lot to me. i don't like to be make use of. it's b'coz of that stupid acc makes me see things round wat u say its true. its goes ard, but diff way n forms. tks 4 letting me learn.

Aku tak kisah kalau dia dah tak nak bayar. Tapi cara dia bercakap, cara pemikiran dia yang mcm budak kecik, biadap lagi. Itu yang aku tak boleh terima dan tak boleh maafkan sampai bila2 pun. I don't deserve all this. Lagi dengan budak taik mcm ni. Biar tuhan aja yang membalas segala perbuatan dia. Aku dah penat nak layan orang2 mcm ni lagi......Haish........

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3:11 PM

Thursday, April 9, 2009

I DON'T WHAT TO SAY. I'M SO STRESS UP. LIFE IS LIKE A TIME BOMB. IT HAPPENS MANY MANY TIME. I DON'T KNOW WHETHER I SHOULD CRY OR LAUGH. I ALWAYS TELL MYSELF, "ADA ORANG LEBIH SUSAH DARI KITA". THIS WORD KEEP ME STRONG AND KEEP MOVING.

BUT SOMETIME............

I FEEL TOO TIRED TO CARRY ON. WHY DID HE ALWAYS HAVE TO MAKE ME WORRY SO MUCH ABOUT HIS WORK. ONE AFTER ANOTHER. EVERY TIME I WILL SURE RECEIVE NEWS AND THAT MADE MY HEART STOP. WHY OH WHY.......

CAN HE JUST BE MORE RESPONSIBLE........

SIGH...........

I DON'T KNOW WHEN THIS IS GONNA STOP....

OR TILL I DIE.......

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11:23 PM

Saturday, April 4, 2009

After so long, I receive an invitation from Yat to bring my children out for dinner. Rasa nya dah berkurun kita tak keluar bersama. Aku dan anak2, Munah dan anak2, Zai bantot dan anak, Yat dan anak. Sang suami semua tak kuasa nak melayan kerenah kita.

Kita makan malam di Popeye kat Terminal 1. Bising sekali. Bila semua dah berkumpul, kecoh nya tak usah cerita. Lebih2 lagi bila they all melayan Aimin.

After dinner we went separate ways. Munah pulang bersama Yat. Aku dan Zai bantot naik train from there with all our children. Hakim belo tag along, because I ask him to. Bayangkan dalam train kita duduk ramai2 facing each other and they were playing and laughing like no other people around. Aku sempat petik 2 gambar untuk kenangan.

Yang paling lucu bila Ira tercampak kasut jauh bila bergurau bersama Hakim. All of us was laughing hard and Ira blush.

U know, I really luv to see all the children together. By watching them, having fun together always make me smile inside. How I wish they will always be like this together. Watching them grow together and having fun together, is all a moment to remember till I die.

AND LASTLY, THANKS YAT FOR THE TREAT AND THE HAPPY MOMENT WITH ALL OF THEM. THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN MISSING FOR SO LONG.

Baru enter the train after berebut tempat duduk.

After kasut Ira tercampak. See how she blush......

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11:27 PM